Seeking the Night of Power in the Last Ten Nights

Yā Rabb, You revealed an entire surah for one night. Al-Qadr 97. You called the night 'better than a thousand months.' And You sent the angels and the Rūḥ down in it, descending with every command, in peace until dawn. Ya Allāh, the Prophet ﷺ, who had access to angelic visitation regularly, intensified specifically during these nights. He tightened his waist-belt. He woke his family. He stayed up the entire night. He sought, across the odd ones, the singular Laylat al-Qadr. And he taught us a specific duʿā for it: 'allāhumma innaka ʿafuwwun tuḥibbu al-ʿafwa fa-ʿfū ʿannī.' O Allah, You are the Pardoner, You love to pardon, so pardon me. Forgive me, ya Rabb, for the Ramadans I have under-utilized. The last ten nights I half-engaged. The 27ths I spent in normal sleep. The odd nights I prayed tarāwīḥ but not the personal qiyām after. Each was a Laylat al-Qadr that may have passed without my full presence in it. And each was 1000+ months of worship potentially missed. Plan the next Ramadan for me, ya Allāh. Place the discipline in my chest weeks before. Adjust my schedule. Build the energy reserves. Make me wake every odd night for personal worship. Place the duʿā on my tongue 100 times each night. Bring my list of needs and names to those nights. And in one of them, ya Rabb, let me catch Laylat al-Qadr in its full form. Let me find on the Day that the worship-density of those nights added up to decades. And let Your pardon, which You love to give, be poured on me in the night You made for pardoning. Āmīn ya ʿAfuww.