Riḍā · The Pleasure with Allah's Decree

Yā Rabb, You named the great success in the closing of al-Bayyinah, and You did not name it as Jannah or fruit or rivers. You named it as a mutual pleasure: 'raḍiya Allāhu ʿanhum wa raḍū ʿanh.' Allah is pleased with them and they are pleased with Him. The highest reward of Jannah is not the Jannah; it is You. And the only way I will receive Your pleasure on that Day is by training my own pleasure here, in this dunyā, before the test ends. Ya Allāh, my riḍā is the trainable variable; everything else is in Your hand. Forgive me for the seasons of my life I spent angry at decrees that were written in mercy I could not yet see. The closed doors. The opened doors I did not want. The illnesses. The losses. The waiting periods. Each was Your choreography, and I argued with it. Train me now, ya Rabb. Place 'raḍītu' on my tongue at fajr and ʿishā three times each, with full meaning, with my chest moving toward what my tongue is saying. Pleased with You as Rabb. Pleased with Islam as dīn. Pleased with Muḥammad ﷺ as Prophet. Pleased with whatever You wrote in my book before I was born. Pleased. Pleased. Pleased. And ya Rabb, when the difficulty comes and riḍā is hard, give it to me as a gift. I cannot manufacture it from a wounded chest. Place it. Pour it. Let it descend as a sakīnah on a difficult day. And on the Day You make the closing verse of al-Bayyinah real for me, let it be true: that You are pleased with me, because I, in the small testing field of this dunyā, was pleased with You. Āmīn ya Wadūd.